what's goin' on with me...
Walking on the treadmill twice a day now... not a lot at one time though... about a 20 minute mile each time.

Saw the 'new' doc yesterday and he wants me to raise the lithium.. he thinks I am still in a manic phase and the 300 mg of lithium isn't cutting it. So have to raise that. He was really nice and I was bummed because he's leaving the place. I knew this before hand but I didn't expect to like him.. lol... they don't even have a replacement as of yet. Will go back in a month but counseling continues next week. She's nice too. Guess they have to be good because there are a lot of HIGHLY crazy people there and mentally handicapped too.. guess I fit right in.. lol.

Down pretty bad yesterday but I think it's PMS. Niiiiiice.

Other than that not much else to say except I am pretty tired which is why I haven't been able to update this as frequently as I should. I just am exhausted. I force myself to do the treadmill but I just would rather be sleeping. My Boobs are swollen and i think I could pose for these guys .If the day was 5 hours long and the rest was sleeping I would be ok. Jason said that's exactly how my mom was.. and he's right... ugh.

I am also very bored. Which I have no right to be because I have so much to do... but it's a weird restlessness inside. I think it's the abilify and I am stopping it today.. can't feel like that anymore.

ok, will do better to write more soon